Grey Matter

Doctorine & Covenants 109:8 "Organize yourselves; prepare every needful thing, and establish a house, even a house of prayer, a house of fasting, a house of faith, a house of learning, a house of glory, a house of order, a house of God;"

I was having a conversation with my friend last night, talking about decision making and te difficulties that sometimes arise during that process. He told me he normally sees his life very black and white, but for some reason in this situation there was just a lot of grey. He didn't understand why. 

This got me thinking a lot because I've also felt a lot of grey lately: grey in my emotions, and grey in the thoughts I have about a lot of significant decisions I have ahead of me. As I've tried to come to y own conclusions for my personal struggles, I've had a lot of difficulty in figuring out what to do for myself. I was amazed then, when my friend came to ask for thoughts and advice with the exact type of issue, grey matter, that I had been mulling over for a few weeks, inspiration came almost immediately!

I told my friend, "You know I think there really is only black and white, the grey is only black and white that have just been jumbled up. You just need to sort through it, organize it into the black and the white. Either that or your grey, just needs more light in it." 

Those two explanations of what "the grey" really is, either a mix of black and white, or white without enough light taught me a lot about the need to organize our lives, our thoughts about things, and the emotions that accompany them.

I also learned an important lesson from the fact that I wasn't able to figure out my  questions on my own. I didn't find an answer until I was helping someone else. I believe so much that we are supposed to be here for each other. Life is a team effort, a team sport. I think that's why God gave us families, maybe that's why he blesses us with friends who come into our lives.

So after all of this I had a chance to chat with another friend who helped me, a little forcefully, but with love, to stop accepting the grey that I saw and to start separating it so that I can move forward. It's amazing the light that you see and all the calm that sets in when the grey clouds are cleared out. I'm so blessed!